I feel like shit.
Just…I don’t feel like doing anything.
Even reading books or reading fanfiction or fangirling or watching anime or doing homework.
I’m not even sure why, either.
Sleep? Maybe. I have work at 12 though.
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Posts Tagged angst
stress
Between college and prom, I’m getting kind of stressed.
I’m not exactly quite sure what to do with this stress, either. I can’t paint, because I’m done with that shit.
Hm maybe this is a sign that I have to hit the books. Homework, I mean. I think it’d be nice to study a little bit to get my mind off life right now.
Regardless, it’s loads of fun being all gossipy and shit with prama. ‘Cause it’s prama.
Hopefully I’ll go with someone. Hahahah the future looks bleak but I’ll ask again after all this college shit, aka next week. Just to make sure.
The bad thing about prom is that it’s screwing with my feelings a lot and I’ve become very like ASDLFKJWLKEJKRJE DICTATOR shit. Yeah I don’t think I like anyone that way. At least today.
Welllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll this has been a vague post.
BIG BANG + 21 = LOLLIPOP?!?!?!?! asldkfjlwekjff this song is SO good. It’s Big Bang PLUS REPETITION!!!! YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY KOREAN SONG CRAZE OF 2009~~~~ besides TOP is absolutely amazing. And GD has his hair crimped like wtf hahahahahaha.
Yay the fact that I mentioned big bang in a post is a sign that I get to use the tag “g-dragon is the hottest guy ever second only to top” again!!!! It’s been a while since I’ve used that one. lawlawlawlawlawl. Eeeeeeek I love TOP’s hair in this commercial because it’s the same as it was in Uhm Jung Hwa’s D.I.S.C.O which is SO HOT. Like ohhhhhhhh my goddddddddd.
Yeah I’ve missed fangirling. A lot. Time to get into the mode agaaaaaainnnnnnnnnnnnn
excessive use of repetition of consonantssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
I realized yesterday that I have been able to triple jump for the longest time, just that my energy has been put in the wrong place for my jump. So now I feel like I can jump 30 consistently even without trying. ‘Cause I can jump like 26 from just jogging, which is fucking sweet. =DDDDDD
BYE TIM….iloveyou
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two weeks? or so
Sorry I haven’t been updating…I’ve just been so busy first with Japan and all that excitement, then with Big Bang’s mini album coming out.
I will save some space and fangirl only for about 200 words.
Big Bang has outdone themselves once again; I didn’t expect their mini-album to be so fresh. Although I had a dream fear that they would just remix Lie, they came out with 하루 하루. I like it better than Lies (which was OKAY imo), and the lyrics/MV made me cry are so sad. OH MY FRIEND also wins at introducing a whole new genre to Korean boy band music. Stand Up is my favorite intro song. The song Heaven is so addicting, and LADY and Good Man make me laugh because they’re so cute.
Also got the Big Bang birthday stuff from Horace and I have opened every cd. Hahaha their CD/DVD covers are so trippy; they’re not like…normal cases xD. I’ve watched SO MUCH BB youtube vids these past two days that I haven’t done any work…at all. Oh well. G-Dragon definitely got hotter with his mohawk. I am ecstatic that TOP went back to his short hair style…and he looks amazing in vest + t-shirt. I have become re-obsessed with G-Ri, because it is adorable and G-Dragon is a bully. TOP is still number one; he wins all with his bad boy/adorkable kid looks. Geez, Big Bang is AWESOME.
Okay now that that’s over with…(exactly 200 words? I think so) I should get started on my college essays. Hahahahhaha. But I must. Although I do have a doctor checkup thing tomorrow (haven’t done one in two years whoops). In any case, went to Horace’s house on Mondaaaaay to watch the meteor shower (2 am woo) and it was AMAZING!!!!!
Gerg came over like an hour before we left for Horace’s and we just like…chilled while he nagged me about looking at some of my doujinshi. Maybe some other time, Greg…hahaha I’m surprised I still hold out on not giving Greg any of the yaoi I read because he already knows that I’m not normal T__T
I am continuing to lose weight! Which is good. Although today I ate quite a bit for dinner; I basically just binged on bagel bites and taquitos and chips…because the day before I didn’t eat dinner. Haha I only ate a muffin at Horace’s house and like ice cream. woot. Not healthy, but…what am I supposed to do? Pageant’s in three days.
Yeah so ANYWAY went to Horace’s house and basically hung out with everyone on the planet (not really because I am jk), and sleeping in a tent in a friend’s backyard is so exciting yet so lame at the same time. xD In any case, I only had two hours of sleep because we stopped looking at the meteor shower around 4am and I just like…woke up at 6 for no reason. Oh well; I got to talk to Horace (in very hushed voices because everyone else was sleeping) for like an hour, which was fun.
Borrowed Lust, Caution from Horace’s mom (lawlawlawlawl)…it’s pretty NSFW (not safe for work), but since it’s something by Li Anchi, I kind of have to watch it. Uhhh I will wait until I am not doing anything. Which will probably be Friday or something.
Tennis hasn’t been going too well, but at least I’ve held out (my serve is good enough so I win points by that). I mean people are just assuming it’s ’cause I haven’t played tennis/have severe case of senioritis (which I do), so I can play however I want. And yet I still recollect what Nenad said, which is good. I just have to relax, swing slow to fast, swing away from me in a circle, move my feet, and make sure my contact point is correct. It sounds easy, but I still have to concentrate on more than one vague objective at a time. OH WELL.
I also uploaded a crazy amount of BB and WG and SHINee stuff to my iPod because I have nothing else to do with my life. Seriously, that’s what I’ve been doing instead of…reading all those summer reading books and doing all those college essays.
Hm. Pageant in three days. Should get working on that. I also have Singles tryouts when I get back (…SHIT), which means that I need to remember how to play tennis. That will be…fun times. NOT. T__T Actually I’m almost back to where I was; I have to get more confidence and RELAX. They’re only Holmdel, GEEZ. Need to be a starter like whoa. Maybe tomorrow I can play like an hour of tennis with Rose? It helps a little bit; I just need to rally with someone so I can get the feel of like…hitting shots with different speeds and moving my feet and stuff. Wow why do I suck at life; how did I even get myself stuck in this situation? I feel like this is the time and regret that I spent all of my summer in California trying to get my forehand back and losing my confidence and skill in the progress. And I didn’t even get my forehand back.
Well enough angst about my tennis (何どかなるって), looking forward to doing some work starting…now.
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