I feel like shit.
Just…I don’t feel like doing anything.
Even reading books or reading fanfiction or fangirling or watching anime or doing homework.
I’m not even sure why, either.
Sleep? Maybe. I have work at 12 though.
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Archive for March, 2009
stress
Between college and prom, I’m getting kind of stressed.
I’m not exactly quite sure what to do with this stress, either. I can’t paint, because I’m done with that shit.
Hm maybe this is a sign that I have to hit the books. Homework, I mean. I think it’d be nice to study a little bit to get my mind off life right now.
Regardless, it’s loads of fun being all gossipy and shit with prama. ‘Cause it’s prama.
Hopefully I’ll go with someone. Hahahah the future looks bleak but I’ll ask again after all this college shit, aka next week. Just to make sure.
The bad thing about prom is that it’s screwing with my feelings a lot and I’ve become very like ASDLFKJWLKEJKRJE DICTATOR shit. Yeah I don’t think I like anyone that way. At least today.
Welllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll this has been a vague post.
BIG BANG + 21 = LOLLIPOP?!?!?!?! asldkfjlwekjff this song is SO good. It’s Big Bang PLUS REPETITION!!!! YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY KOREAN SONG CRAZE OF 2009~~~~ besides TOP is absolutely amazing. And GD has his hair crimped like wtf hahahahahaha.
Yay the fact that I mentioned big bang in a post is a sign that I get to use the tag “g-dragon is the hottest guy ever second only to top” again!!!! It’s been a while since I’ve used that one. lawlawlawlawlawl. Eeeeeeek I love TOP’s hair in this commercial because it’s the same as it was in Uhm Jung Hwa’s D.I.S.C.O which is SO HOT. Like ohhhhhhhh my goddddddddd.
Yeah I’ve missed fangirling. A lot. Time to get into the mode agaaaaaainnnnnnnnnnnnn
excessive use of repetition of consonantssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
I realized yesterday that I have been able to triple jump for the longest time, just that my energy has been put in the wrong place for my jump. So now I feel like I can jump 30 consistently even without trying. ‘Cause I can jump like 26 from just jogging, which is fucking sweet. =DDDDDD
BYE TIM….iloveyou
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fucking sweet
UC BERKELEY
Caltech
Cornell ILR
UCLA
UCI
NYU Stern
eeeek I’m so happy I got into Berkeley. At this point it’s 85% sure that I’m going, but I’m going to wait on the Ivys to come out on Tuesday and Stanford on Wednesday and make my choice from there.
Cal gave me the Regent and Chancellor’s Scholarship, which means I get guaranteed housing for all 8 of my semesters, priority consideration for summer interns, a faculty advisor for school and career counseling, and $1000 at least for the first year. Also if I go I’m pretty sure I can pay in-state the first year because dad pays California taxes. Awesome.
Going to visit Cal the last day of Spring Break into the Monday we get back. Also going to the new student orientation in NYC Sunday, April 5th.
Wow everything seems kind of like a dream. Makes me really want to finish these two scholarships (which I haven’t even started yet) that I need to hand in to Mr. Kowalczyk by tomorrow if I want everything submitted on time.
500 word autobiography and a 250 word scholarship essay.
Psychology.
Spanish (two nights’ worth).
Econ.
Whitten.
Italian.
Whatever homework isn’t important right now; I should concentrate on finishing those scholarships. Although I do need to study for psych because my grade is complete fail in that class right now. Spanish I could care less about but I feel like I might not get an A this MP if I slack off too much. Screw Whitten. Econ is silly. I didn’t even bring home Italian.
Ohhhhhhh my gadddddddddddddddddddd yay.
International Dinner was amazing. Mom’s chicken parm was SO good. Sat between Cathay and Horace and across from Niti (aka god with her empty lighter) and Dave. Gregg sat nearby. Greg was MIA because of the sick. =(
Cathay and co.’s telenovella was SO LOLOLOLOLOL. Connie in a dress and wig was the funniest thing since ever. Spanish was a little bit of fail but the sombreros and sunglasses were awesome. Chinese was fail. Latin was slightly lol but paled in comparison to Italian. I’m happy IHS regained some of its pride after last year’s fail. xDDDD Pinocchio. Yes. I used ‘fail’ like twenty times in this paragraph.
Okay. Now to work.
My sleep hours are dying.
Mood: Glee.
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done.
Wow I am DONE with painting my freaking crazy international monument whatever shit. Only took me a couple twenty hours or so, cumulatively.
Wednesday: 1 hour – Sketch
Thursday: 2 hours – Statue of Liberty
Friday: 2.5 hours – Big Ben
Saturday: 2 hours – Sydney Opera House
Sunday: 2.5 hours – Taj Mahal, Kyoto
Monday: 3 hours – Kyoto, Eiffel Tower
Tuesday: 5.5 hours – Leaning Tower of Pisa, Great Wall of China, Himalaya Mountains, landscape
Okay just kidding it only took me 18.5 hours. What a cool way to not go online. Like I still had to go online during the week to do various business like solve people’s problems with rather fail and I still went to On the Border with Niti (omg…so delicioso) and to the Jazz Band Festival to help out (and ask around for prom…), but overall a very productive week.
I don’t have school tomorrow per say, because I have a FIELD TRIP!!!!! Or Heroes and Cool Kids. Whatever. Thus I really don’t have to do any homework today and I could leave it all until tomorrow to do. Uhhh maybe I’ll do Whitten today because I’ll feel bad if I don’t do the stuff for the discussion, AND if I’m not there for the discussion. Which I’m not. I guess I’ll just give my stuff to Horace or something. ‘Kay.
On my romantic life, nothing has happened. I think old feelings of SQUEE for certain people have been resurfacing for lack of Korean boy bands to fangirl over. And lack of yaoi fanfiction to read (this D.Gray-man fanfic has fucking took me a week, and I’m still not done reading it). Hmmmmmmmmm.
Discovered that Hidato is a great way to waste away my mind. Better than Sudoku because Hidato is really really REALLY mindless fo sho.
As Bell said it, triple jump is “Mental Mind Fuck.” He says I totally have it down I just need to have more confidence and jump longer on the first hop and higher on the last. Practiced with Bell today and totally improved a bunch. Cole wasn’t here, so he was like “okay no practice but jumpers go with Bell.” Hence. It was good time, just that I was like the only girl left out of three when Giulia and Alyssa just decided to leave at 4:15, before I fell on my ass over the hurdle. Goddammit.
All right (thanks to Horace, I found out that it is NOT all right to spell “all right” as “alright”), time to do some work. Thursday is going to fucking suck because I have to make up Stat and Psych and probably a shitload of Spanish homework. Right, and Berkeley comes out that day. And the International Dinner is that night. Woot I love jam-packed Thursdays!!!
On a totally unrelated note, I realized that the last NJML test was today. Good time because I literally ran in 5 minutes late and ran out 5 minute early. Which means that I got a 3 at best. Hah fail. Good thing Horace reminded me.
Okay bye.
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difficult
Trying to help others resolve their problems is difficult. It makes me feel like an uncaring and overbearing but very practical bitch.
In any case everything has its roots in fanfiction.
EEEEEEK G-DRAGON IS FEATURING IN W-INDS. NEW SINGLE MAY 13TH EEEE I HOPE HE RAPS IN JAPANESE EEEEEEEEE
AND I CAN’T WAIT TO WATCH SEUNG RI’S MOVIE BECAUSE HE LOOKS REALLY REALLY REALLY CUTE AS A SOCCER PLAYER EEEEEEE
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Wahoo!!!!
Yay running makes me happy even though I want to die during the 400 workouts. Cole and Kaci both said I did really well, although that’s because I stuck with Paula (and failed; came in like 2-4 seconds slower than her in every run. That’s okay though.
Went home and jumped rope, because I need to lighten up my step in like, life. Can’t triple jump or run without being less heavy on my feet. Also, it kills my knees and my general joint areas.
I finally have time to do the eco flyer!!! YAY!!!!!!!!! I am so happy to do this and get it over with. I just have to find a way to make it legible now hahaha. I also have to sketch out the career day canvas, but that takes a little more time so I think I’ll do that after I do some physics homework and feel more comfortable before taking Thursday’s test.
AIME was beast today. I could only answer 7 out of the 15 in a total of 3 hours. Whatever; at least I got to miss >50% of the day. It was great. I think I need to go to more econ; I’ve seriously missed it like 4 times in the past seven days. xDD
I find Farenheit 451 to be a pretty interesting book. However, I’m preoccupied with The Chronicles of Chretomanci: Witch Week right now, so I think I should finish that first. Diana Wynne Jones is an awesome children’s fantasy writer for the win. I need to start reading more educational books.
Wow ever since I got into college I’ve been feeling so much better about myself. That’s good.
On the Border on Friday with Niti and company. I am ridiculously excited. It is good.
Greg started calling me Lisa. Yaaaaaaaaay. Not that I have any objections to the name Paco. Calling me ‘Lisa’ just makes me feel more special, even though there’s no other Paco in the school.
I need to get around to rereading Shaman King in order to read Shaman King KangZengBang (the alternate ending) and get the full effect. It will be good time.
Okay now to work. I’m so optimistic about the rest of this week, too.
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Good
I finished my Pygmalion paper at around 12:30, which was good timing for me. Went straight to sleep after that and slept like a log for six hours.
Woke up ridiculously tired this morning. However, overall I had a very satisfying day; Horace, Dave and I (and Kathy, to some extent) made jokes in Econ the entire period by drawing in Horace’s APE. Every time Motz made a joke, Horace and I took that as our cue to burst out laughing because our sides (or at least my sides) hurt from shaking with laughter. I think we were all a litle tired from the research paper.
Best news ever today was that Whitten won’t be here for the rest of the week because her grandchild is getting born (yay!) and she’s going down to DC to wait. Oh, I am so happy. So, so happy.
I don’t understand why I don’t like her so much. Well, I do, but I’ve never felt odiousness for any teacher, let alone a teacher for English. Maybe it’s the amount of work she gives? McDonald gave a ton of work, but it was useful work, because we actually would go over it and she would write constructive comments. Whitten gives me a 42 out of 50 and tells me to change my writing style. My style is fine as it is.
It’s not that I’m just being stubborn, either; I really do like my writing style, and it’s perfectly clear, unlike what she may think. According to her, my style renders the text imprecise, and by changing it I can convey my ideas better. Well, considering I didn’t want to waste paper, I confined my answers to one page. I used enough words for me to be able to look at my responses and relay them to my discussion group, to be clear to myself. I wrote down clear quotes that I could build upon if I needed to write a full-blown essay on any one thing. I’m not going to waste time writing explanations if it’s just a homework assignment, and I’m going to build on it through discussion anyway. Which I did. And she gave me a 40 out of 50.
I did put effort into the assignment. It’s not like I BSed it. I just put down key points that required little elaboration, and she accuses me of not being clear enough.
I don’t care that I got a 42 out of 50; it’s that my style was the reason for my 8 points off that irritated me. I can write. She knows I can write.
Maybe I’m bitching about this because I’m a 3rd MP senior and I can’t take criticism like I used to, because I think I’m close to perfect and ready for college. Or maybe the whit is not as passive as she makes herself out to be. Which she doesn’t.
Regardless, idk why I was kind of pissed at the assignment in general. It’s not like she took off half credit.
…she insulted my style in an effort to improve it.
Enough about that class…I care enough to not completely BS the entire thing, but I don’t even know what she grades anymore.
I love 2PM. Like…they’re nothing compared to Big Bang, but they’re so…awesome I can’t take it. Taecyeon is by far my favorite right now; he speaks ENGLISH! Yee!!! So does Jae Beom, and he is seriously black but not really but he lived in Seattle. Woot. Woo Young is probs my favorite Korean Korean member, because he’s so LOL in the 10 points out of 10 video. Which I have watched almost as many times as Haru Haru. I can’t wait for them to release their new single…IN DECEMBER. GAHHH FUCK.
I also found Super Junior’s comeback song “Sorry Sorry” quite catchy but the rabidness of ELFs (SuJu fans) repulsed me. Besides, there are 13 freaking people. It’s a colony.
TOP’s family was rated the best looking family in the Korean celebrity world of today. Yay. His sister is really hot, though. Yes that was not a creepy statement.
I have AIME tomorrow. It’ll be good time, because idk what I’ll be doing. Hahahaha I got 3 out of 15 questions. The good thing is, I’m pretty good at the geometry questions so I guess I’ll just focus on those.
I’m kind of giddy about getting the rest of my college decisions back now, since I know I can go to perfectly good schools even if I don’t get into Harvard and Yale and the like. Although UC Berkeley would be freaking awesome. I want Horace to get into a good school, too.
Thinking about prom but still haven’t decided when’s the right time to ask. Because prom IS in three months. That is quite a while. Maybe April.
Holmdel drama is loldel drama. Especially when it doesn’t concern me and when it is Asian drama.
The hurdling juniors need to stop acting like they’re badass and ignoring the rest of the group when stretching and doing drills because they’re just looking like people who just disrespect. And that ain’t cool. Plus it makes them look like bitches and hoes.
Kev’s video was rather funny after I got the general gist of where it was going.
I’m just writing until I get enough inspiration to finish my poem for Lit Mag. Haha I am such a procrastinator.
I need to find some time to make a rough sketch of what I’m painting for Mrs. Butler. I also need to lose these five (or eight?) pounds that I still have from winter break. God fucking dammit. I know it’s all fat, too.
Wow now I feel kind of depressed. Dumb Whitten.
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whitten
Fucking pygmalion paper can go die in a hole
Running on four hours of sleep for very good reasons…including talking to horace and greg about life in general and how fucked up the three of us are in various ways.
Surprised to find that I am faster than I was in sophomore year, which was the last time I raced. This is good; means that I’ll get some running in this season instead of only doing triple jump, although I love TJ immensely.
I have done a shitload of homework this weekend. I am commending myself.
Still have econ articles to do. GAH. *pine!mope*
iPhoto kills my computer. I need to find a new way to transfer shit because like…my computer dies whenever it turns on. rather sad. oh nvm I just found out that the only reason that happens is because I had a hugeass WG avi on my sd card so it would just kill everything in general. Everything’s good now. yay.
Back to Whitten.
I have no idea how I’m going to sleep at an appropriate hour today; I also have to do some stuff for Indian Hill’s career day (painting?) and the freaking ECO flyer. Gah.
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Productivity
I am feeling immensely productive today.
Hopefully I can finish typing the physics homework, outline half of psych, do a couple of lit mag submissions, and FINALLY start the eco club recycling flyer.
Goddammit.
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JYP + WG Tour
So. Amazing.
I must download JYP’s discography.
So Hee can dance.
Sun Ye can sing.
Yoobin is complete awesome.
I love 2PM. All of them.
Autographed 2PM cd + WG t-shirt + WG poster + JYP Entertainment laptop case (okay..I got that only because I NEEDED the 2PM cd that came with it)
I waste so much money.
I have to crunch down on savings for college.
…or for when Big Bang comes to America (or when I go to Korea).
Whenever that is.
=D
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